Silent Sadness

Hello~It took me along time to come on here and post an entry. I am feeling an incredible sadness. I am having some hard times here in my world. I won't bore you with them~ I have even cleared out my art studio. Ever since I had that awful flu I am not the same person any more and I don't like what I'm feeling. It feels as though I'm giving up, giving up on everything. You name it, it's been happening to me.... Even a tiny little thing as a swap gone bad! I sent out my swap and I never received mine. Down to the littlest things.... It's all going wrong. I have no energy, no vision, no imagination, no life left in me. I'm scared... It's a sadness that can't be explained~ I don't know what is happening to me. Everything I've loved before is a torture for me now. This big world is so full of mean people and people who will try to zap your imagination and ideas~ I'm so tired of it.. To the point that I don't even want to leave my home, but, I don't like my home! I'm trapped in a world I do not like. I don't know how to escape! I want to create and live in my own little world, but the environment and people around me are preventing that from happening. I need to get back to myself, or invent a new self. I just don't have the energy to try anymore. I've tried so hard to accept the things I have to live with, accept the place I live in, but, I can't do it anymore. I will always post on my blog~I'm just not sure how anymore~ I need my heart uplifted.....

Flu

I have been ill~ Yucky! I was in bed for 3 whole days. I've been sick for 5 days! But, I think I won't die!!!!~
I really thought I was!!!!~
Hope everyone is doing well~
Since I've been outta "commision" for a few days I don't really have much to post! I'm working on it though!!!!!~

SMILE~~~

HomeBound

Hello! I have been homebound due to our snow storm!~ UGH!! I love snow but, not on a weekend!!! hahaha... So, here's a few pics of my tiny attic space and my latest "altered top hat", number 2 in my "Altered Top Hat" series. And, of course the snow! I wish my attic was bigger! I go up there and sit sometimes. It's full of my treasures just waiting for my kids to get older so they can come out of the attic!!! (treasures, not the kids)!!! hahaha!~ I put all of my favorite things up there! It's sad really, I buy these great things and then I put them up there.. Is that an emotional disorder??!! hahaha~ One day I will enjoy my treasures, until then, I shall visit them! YEp, I think it's a disorder!!! Take care lovelies!!!!!~ (the beautiful brown shirt hanging on one of my mannequins below is from Pearl at Magnolia Pearl.. Can you believe she sent it to me as a gift!!) What a lady!!!!!~ She has a blog now.. http://www.magnoliapearl.com

!!!!!!Drum Roll Please!!!!!!

As the clock struck Midnight, the bells rang and the fairy danced in the moonlight all to excited to pick the spectacular winner!~ With much delight, she dove her hand into the magic bowl and pulled out a rather delicious name! ~~An altered fairytale!!!~~ http://analteredfairytale.blogspot.com
Congratulations!!!!!!!

The fairy and I are content!!~

Have a wonderful weekend!!!!~

~midnight~

Tonight, at the stroke of midnight~The lucky winner will be picked!!!!~